Deborah James, a 37-year-old woman fears that this was the last Mother’s Day she spent with her kids and after this, the kids will have a future without her. Talking about her journey, she recently celebrated the 16th round of chemotherapy with her kids and is trying to be okay with what future holds for her and her children. However, this was not the case a few months back. She was hell scared of her death and the topic itself gave her the chills.

She is a lady who can talk about any taboo and it wouldn’t bother her a bit. But the topic of death makes her nervous and scared. She knows to live with such a disease is inevitable and has to talk about it to her kids.

The only certainty you have in life is death but she didn’t expect it before hitting 90 in 2072. At the age of 37, you don’t think about the pain you have to go through while you are dying and that is what she was doing.

Every consent form she has to fill before the treatment gives a disclaimer that the treatment is not going to cure her but will help in just controlling the system. It was her friend Rachel, who herself died of breast cancer last year in September. She made Deborah talk about the topic she dreaded the most.

Deborah is a person who is not very comfortable thinking about palliative care and she is the one who has to go through it every day now. However, when she met a palliative care physician, Kathryn Mannix, author of With The End In Mind. She made Rachel feel comfortable at the last stage of her life and that is exactly what Deborah needed. She didn’t know how to face her fear and accept it as a reality. She was scared of the total panic, drama, wailing, pain, and everything that surrounds the death.

The idea of talking about death is that if you talk about something and normalize it in your life, it petrifies you less. The rational view of a specialist definitely gives you a clear perspective and helps you in dealing with all kind of negativity.

Death is definitely not easy to face but Deborah has been trying her best to get to the stage where she can be okay with the thought of not existing further. It is hard but now she has decided to not give up on life and live each day as it comes and to the fullest.

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